Well my dads been gone 4 days but i havnt seen him for a week. Its the weirdest feeling ever, i've never not been able to call my dad or anything, now i cant. It felt like just yesterday that he robbed the bank. I remember every minute of that day. From the time i said i wanted to die from the pain being so bad to the time my dad called and said he'd be home in a half hour and never came home or called. The next few years are just going to be weird without him. I miss him, that wont change till he comes home. I would love to call him up just to say hi, but that may not happen for a month or so. I just dont know. Everything from the time he robbed the bank two years ago, till now, has been more crazy then ever. So much drama, so many lies, so much fighting. Theres not a day i wouldnt change, i've met some awesome people being in the hospital. I say that all the time cause i want them to know that they really are more then nurses and doctors but i consider them friends. One's i'll never forget.

Sick this week.

Well im sick this week, i've only gone to scool 2 days out of the whole week i've been there. I always get sick when i go back to school, i dont know why. I go to the counsler tomorrow and i have a CT scan friday to see if i have a sinus infection. Cause im dizzy and i feel like im going to pass out a few times through out the day. Alot has been going on, my dad left monday for texas. So i wont be able to talk to him for awhile.

Today, well was good and bad. I went to the doctor, got put on steriods for like a week. Thats now 9 pills. My dads leaving this weekend which is pretty, no very, stressing. But so far so good. I have not much of anything new. Im back in school and doing pre-algrabra and chior then i do history online. When i turn 16 on the 18th of feburary, im going to try for my GED, it may not be the BEST but if i tried for my daplomia i'd be in high school forever. It may just work out in the end and thats what were all hoping for. This is the first time since my surgery i've been sick. I go to my ostimy support group once a month and just talk about everything, its fun, im glade they started it. Well i've been having fun at school even though i've went 2 days so far. (: Being back in the groove with friends is fun.

Spent 5 days in Portland for my cousins wedding. Was the best wedding i have been to (: It was soo fun! We got a new car. That was well needed! I dont have much to say. Im feeling pretty good. I drove all the way home today. That was fun! (:

I've been home for about 2 or 3 weeks, its been going fantastic. (: Getting remicade again, i never know what'll happen since im alergic. Im not sure what more doctors can do if i get the antibodys back. This last hospital stay was 66 days, but it was so fun and i met the most amazing people! I had surgery and had my colon out (3 feet of intestine), a little bit of my large intestine, and they sewed up my rectum. I'll have a colostimy for the rest of my life and im okay with that! There can always be worse. The last 5 years with crohn's have been the best 5 years of my life, i have been thinking about that long and hard and i now realize that crohn's isnt a bad thing and to take all the good experiences i've had! What's bad is good! And i love all of it! <3

(: Its where i live!

Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

im all that and a bag of chips.!